well. seems that o level results are out soon. why is everyone so scared. its the results. we're not going to sit for all 50papers again on monday what. you've done it already and now its time to see how you've fared. stop whining la ffs. -__- anyway; i've thought of worst case scenario already. retain/5N. not to say its a bad option or what. but i mean. come on. another year in school. not what i had in mind. have to sit through another year in guangyang and try to not kill any fag which dares cross my path about me failing. well there is other schools. but. wtf? no. spent my day helping to cook and in the afternoon dota/cs, but i intended to run. if you all know me. it wont happen. and it didnt. somehow things need to be done but for what? myself? im happy with what i have now/ doing now. for others? screw what others think. what they think is their problem. its their opinion. why should it matter? ye. somehow this links up to an old friend i asked out last year. asked her to go watch a movie. turns out that night she said she wasnt sure what her friends would think. up till now i still dont know wtf is wrong with everyone. im drifting away from everyone else now. its. very, sian. to have this feeling of want, but still knowing that you cant have it. its really just stupid to think that i have a chance. my studies are crap. no denying that. cant make it very far with f's in almost every sub. i stopped caring long ago. now its just wait and see what happens. i am more quiet than last time now. i hardly talk to anyone. save vincent and boi and who not. but apart from them no one else. even cyeo i think is pushing me away. havent talked to her in awhile. and now there's no reason to talk to anyone anymore. i mean her judgement is swayed by her friends. are you scared that if your friends find out about me they will make you a pariah or smth? please la. == ive had enough of this already.